January 2009
“Lets go to a place far away, where we could stay together forever and ever. A...”
“Why won’t you be my blue sky, so I can be your sunshine. You’ll be...”
of course you do.
the boy: "if that makes you happy" ): no love
me: whatt! i love you tho.
me: like...
me: uh
the boy: ._. hm?
me: ME+YOU = LOVE YOU, LONG TIME xD
the boy: you're cute xD I love you!
me: of course you do(:
the boy: ^.^
“idk because we clicked from the very beginning and lately we haven’t...”
– my amazing friend, he believes that ^<3
the boy.
me: nooo its okay. danny, i don't wanna fight or have anymore arguments with you :/ i'm tired of fighting, its all i ever do now, and not just with you.. but its just driving me crazy >.<
the boy: you just get on the defensive sometimes :/ and I've said it before and I'll say it again this fights are stupid yet it makes me want you more so chill :) I love you
“mm I want hot cocoa and I want to cuddle with my cute girlfriend”
– Danny
thinking of you.
My dreams are me being doubtful. I am a stupid girl. With a need of affection. I wait around, most of the time. I usually get lost in my own world. I found myself needy. Needing him, to be around constantly.. Independence, seems to disappear, as soon as things were official. Its been 20 days.* Someones constantly on my mind and I can’t control it..
I’m keeping my inspiration in a jar,...
he makes me smile x'D
the boy: i want a brown one with black stripes :x
me: but... -.-
the boy: so it looks like it came from africa
this isn't my kind of writing, but writer's should...
I am not growing up too fast.. And I feel like I can handle this road I’m on now. I feel safe with him, emotionally too. And I don’t think things are moving too fast. Its only been 15 days. He amazes me. Whenever his lips meet mine, afterwards I get a bit dizzy. I love it. I feel extremely comfortable.<3
daniel929200: i feel all tingly inside lol, that deff just made my day cuz most ppl tell me all these sad boring things but that was really happy so now im all happy and yay
i needed one of these's like a pill
me: confussing person.
the boy: you are too
me: i know. :/
the boy: but i still love you no matter what xD
me: I love you too;P
the boy: good x]
i'm really wondering..
A bit too much.. I truly need to stop. I’m realizing my fears, right now. And I’m no longer fearless. This road I’m on, is it taking me anywhere? Will love be at the next stop? I’m noticing my fear of the future. Its hard for me to grasp. Could this just be another dream that came true, but turned into another tragic ending? It makes me depressed. I hate thinking about the...
“I want another cute conversation with my boyfriend, to make this day feel...”
– myself
do you really think that effect's me? (venting)
Because I could careless what any one’s says, especially, when it came out of your mouth. I know what I’m doing, and I’m at the point of no return.. I’ll stop, if i need too. If mom asks me to.. I will, but she won’t. She’ll end up feeling bad. I don’t need anyone to survive off now. I’m living life getting on my own. I can survive. You...
“I’d rather know what you’re thinking — even if what you’re thinking is insane.”
– Edward Cullen
2009, so far.
NUMBER 1: My friendship with my best friend has become this “hella cute,” relationship appearently. He means a lot to me. I could never let our friendship go. And, he really inspire’s me even if its making me blue, cry, or happy. Its only been a week or so, and I’m hoping for the best.<33
NUMBER 2: My other friendship with my best friend Angie, has been really good. I...
Fom hundred's of mile's you cry like a baby, you...
Tuesday, was horrible.
I wrote this (below) yesterday, i just let it flow, I’m not finished with it, i think. Thanks to interruption’s. -_-
So you’ve given into your heart’s desire. What has become of you now? Your strong gold heart has finally melted. You’re left constantly dependent on the one you deeply love. With every little argument, it tear’s you up....
your all, i dream about.
me: i wish i wasn't always cold -.-
the boy: :o what? if you weren't cold, we wouldn't cuddle :'[
me: mmmmmm :/ i meant cold, when your not around?
the boy: touche :º
me: mhm, but i love being cold sometimes, so i can tell you, and then we could cuddle later x'D
the boy: aww :') i love you baby
“It’s healthy to ditch class now and then.”
its so disgusting,
I’ve become, the thing I hate. I’ve decided from this day on, you will NOT, see any ”public display,” or “stupid myspace pictures,” of me and the boy. I’m not all about the hype and telling people that, “I HAVE A BOYFIRNED LIKE OMG!” ‘Cause I’m not like that. I won’t tell you things.. if you don’t ask. I hate having...
updating this is like a hot addiction.
the boy: aw, well we can cuddle 'til you're not cold anymore? (x
me: but you know that will be forever. xD
the boy: i know x')
how much time do you want to spend with me?...
me: i love you danny
the boy: i love you more lindaaa
me: you can't, you can't, you can't!
the boy: but i do ^-^
me: but its no fair D;
me: its like saying i can't love you more.
the boy: true
the boy: but i like saying i love you more
the boy: >;o now i don't wanna leave you wtf >.<
me: lol
the boy: haha ;( the things you make me do
me: aw, you can go to sleep if you want. (:
the boy: but i want to talk to you ):
the boy: and cuddle with you
the boy: D:
me: awwww. we can still do that.
the boy: right now? :[
our first fight lead to this,
me: idk, but i realized, i was acting so childish ;/
the boy: kinda
me: yea, well i'm sorry, again :l
the boy: it's okay. childish or not, i'll still love you :]
me: aw(:
me: i don't deserve you. :/ seriously.
the boy: ;| don't say that
me: but.. its sort of true. i think about a lot of things, i've done..
the boy: do i wanna know? ._.
me: probably not. its all in the past anyways.
the boy: exactly :] so don't think about it, no one is perfect
me: mhhm.
the boy: even tho, i think you are :o
me: -.- well its false.
the boy: nooo >;O
me: scary. should i just nodd and agreee?
the boy: if you want to make me happy, then yes
me: i agree (x
“You are exactly my brand of heroine.”
– Twilight
number two 1/10
the boy: i'm kinda sleepy x(
me: ): don't sleep.
the boy: i'm not(:
me: really?
the boy: and stop talking to you? nuh-uh xD
number one 1/10
the boy: but i am D: and my friend was talking about breaking up with her boyfriend 'cause he is boring now so asdjkasdh :| idk >.<
me: ;o :l stupid girls.
me: you don't think thats gonna happen to use, do you?
the boy: idk, i hope not. but like i said, i'm boring );
me: >;o you are not boring, if you were i wouldn't like having you around. but i love having you around. :/ so stop it.
the boy: linda
the boy: i love you (x
me: i love you too. (':
the boy: i feel lucky o.o lol
me: why is that? aha
the boy: because you're dating me? o.0 mhm
me: oh ahah aw (: that was corny :x but i liked it.
me:
the boy: you know what, i ain't saying a thing now ;x
me: :o why?
the boy: because everything i say, you don't like it ;º
me: i do love it tho! >;P
the boy: you confuse me linda kamphan D: lol
me: -.-' look, i love practically everything you do now. get over it ;/
the boy: finee ;*
me: i love you tho. (:
me: (:
me: say it back :o
the boy: I LOVE YOU TOO
the boy: :]
NUMBER THREE. (I need to stop aha)
me: okay so once upon a time, there was a boy name Danny, he was .. WELL, theres no real backround about him besides that he own 1000000 unicorns, danny loved his unicorns. but he didn't know who would help him take care of them. so one day, danny met lin, lin loved unicorns too :'] and uhh..... lin loved them wayyy more o.O so she bought all the unicorns from danny for herself :] and thats why you don't see unicorns anymore cause there all at lin's house!
me: o_O
me: lmfao :x
the boy: ROFLMAO
me: i think that was very creative :] mhm
the boy: lol now i know why i never see them haha xD
me: ANYMORE i'm coughing
the boy: lol :'|
me: but you can come over to play with them :]
NUMBER TWO.
the boy: it was like some kind of animal planet shit in my house o.o haha
me: lmfao :x
the boy: lol my pets are weird :'|
me: its okay, they take after their owner.
the boy: o,:<
me: i love you (:
the boy: i love my girlfriend more? :o mhm >:]
me: do you want me to repeat that thing i reaped before o.-
the boy: no :]
me: okay so, do you agree with me?
the boy: mmm kinda :x
me: i'm good with kinda -.-
the boy: ah fine, YES
the boy: :P
me: OKAY GOOD
NUMBER ONE.
the boy: oh and don't fall asleep on me D;
me: i won't
the boy: :') good, i love you
me: danny, i love you a lot a lot.
the boy: buuut, iloveyoumore :x
me: thats not fair! one person in a relationship cannot love the other more than the other person loves them :x
the boy: touche :º
the boy: haha x)
me: mmhhmm.
our own worlds
Tonight is going to be the snowball. Though, I decided already i didn’t want to go. I wonder what it would be like. I guess there just next year then? I didn’t buy tickets in time anyways so whatever. Getting extra pretty, was such a waste of time. Especially when you don’t need to get extra pretty.
I plan to go to the mall tonight, and have a wonderful shopping spree with my...
forever my best friend aha
me: i hate you forever >;l
timmahhhh: because i won't sleep with you? -.-
are we really becoming one of those couples?
me: ;oooooooooo
me: guess what
me: o_o
the boy: what? :º
me: idk but i like that face >:] ^^
the boy: lmfao :º
me: yes >:]
me: i could kiss it!
the boy: noo ;o!
me: why not?
the boy: because ;º you should kiss me instead :o aha
the boy: lmfao
me: lol ;D
“They’re not love handles if nobody’s there to love them, right?”
i seem to be one of those girls who cry, a lot.
quote of my day -_e
“i like you a lot, i want to be with you. But I can’t.”
Today the boy & i were talking, i couldn’t believe how mean and unfair he was being this morning. He compared me to his ex. Which killed me, cause I hate that! He was jealous, although he didn’t say he was. We weren’t even going out yet and things like this are happening :/ Today I...
“To notice when you’re leaving me without any sounds. Your love is just so...”
loves makes us weak.
I never thought I could get so happy to miserable or so miserable to happy so fast. This whole day has been filled with curious thoughts inside my head. And as I start to think more, and more deeper, I walked a few miles into my past. All I could remember about my love life in the past was..
1) When I was younger I had a best friend, a close one, and we were going to go into a relationship. But...
“Hand’s down, I’m too proud for love. But eye’s shut, its you...”
brand new beat
Recently this past weekend, i confessed my love for someone deeply important in my life. I couldn’t believe it, me - tell someone my secret feelings for them? It was hard, because knowing me, i have a big fear of rejection. Before I ever told a soul about this feeling i had for my deeply important person, I’d wonder, for hours, what it would be like.. And now that i confessed,...